Everlasting Change

It has been some time since my last posting but I'm back.

It's amazing how the Lord reveals things to us. Sometimes so subtly we hardly notice but other times it feels as though you hit a brick wall. Well...hello brick and mortar. My name is Chris.

My whole life I have ridden this roller coaster of weight loss and weight gain; low self-esteem and mediocre self-esteem; being repulsed by what I see in the mirror and not giving two craps what the mirror shows. I've had enough and it's time to get off this crazy ride!

You may be thinking to yourself, "What makes this time different from any of the others, Chris?" Good question. This time I've hit the brick wall and, once the stars disappeared, I saw the writing on it.

We do a lot of studies at our church. Most of the time I get a few nuggets of knowledge and insight from them but rarely am I sold out to them 110%. Recently, I found myself in the usual one foot in-one foot out position during a study called "Life's Healing Choices." Our church participated in this study to prepare us for a new ministry called Celebrate Recovery. This basically deals with all of life's hurts, habits, and hang-ups...not just drug, alcohol, and sex issues but everything. It uses the Beatitudes to establish principles to help you work through the issues that prevent us from experiencing the fullness of Christ, the things that keep us stuck in the past.

We wrapped the study up November of this past year and, since then, the Lord has revealed to me that I really need to go back and give this study my all. Why? Because I've always relied on my own strength and will power to change and that has never worked. I have to rely on His strength and power to make the changes in me.

So, here it is. I will be working through this study and sharing my experience through this blog. I will be journaling my experiences and, hopefully, being held accountable by my friends and family. I know change needs to occur in my life. I don't want to end up overweight for the rest of my life wondering when the diabetes/high blood pressure/high cholesterol/falling apart body bomb will drop. I cannot do this on my own anymore. I must depend on Him to reveal to me the things that must change, no matter how painful and embarrassing.

Please pray for me as I begin this journey. I can use all the intercession you're willing to give. :)